ILLUSTRATION: JESSICA DURRANT/GETTY IMAGES
Can you imagine a colour you have never seen? How do you visualise a thing that you can’t describe? How do you manifest something you cannot yet conceive? After years in a sexless marriage, my unprecedented forays into the world of casual dating seemed like a necessary stage of my awakening but, if I really wanted to explore my sensuality, I would have to establish some kind of relationship with a man. But what would that look like? I honestly had no idea.
What did I desire?