om lite
I was talking recently with my husband about my meditation practice and how I’m finding it a bit frustrating at the moment. Is it really going anywhere? What’s the point anyway? Each morning I get up, light a candle, wrap myself in a blanket and sit diligently on my cushion. But nothing much seems to happen and my mind still wanders everywhere and anywhere. I’m starting to wonder: should I just have that extra half an hour tucked up in bed instead?
My husband’s immediate reaction was to want to fix this for me (of course!). He recommended I shake it up a bit. Specifically, instead of my usual silent sitting, he suggested that I use an app or a guided meditation to help me find some focus and make better progress. Don’t get me wrong, I appreciated the suggestions and the support he offered, but I couldn’t help feeling that they were ways of avoiding the experience I was having. Despite my initial complaining, it made me question whether these feelings of frustration and boredom were really so bad after all. Was it actually something that needed fixing?