PHOTO HOLLY FALCONER
MOTHERHOOD: HAVE I LEFT IT TOO LATE?
In recent months a strange thing has occurred and I’ve realised I want to have a child. Children, even. You may think it’s odd that, as a 49-year-old, I haven’t thought about this earlier but I truly didn’t. It feels like something biological has kicked in, something I never believed in because I didn’t “feel it” like a lot of women I have known did, in their 20s and 30s. Anyway, I’ve done some research and it looks like it’s too late. Acknowledging this makes me feel bereft, as if I’ve been robbed of something I never actually had. I’m not sure what to do next. Will this feeling leave me as suddenly as it crept up on me or do I need to accept it’s not going to happen? Any helpful suggestions would be gratefully received.