I’ll not go into my growing up with sisters and always trying on the clothes etc, as I think That’s most of us trans/ crossdressers.
My life has been up and down with Jane, always reading and hearing that a man wearing woman clothes is wrong and perverted. I went from thinking ‘I’m a freak’ to thinking ‘I was using the clothes as some kind of sexual fetish’, I didn’t know what or who I was!