I get a lot of emails from girls like me, and it never surprises me how similar our experiences are. For most of us, we started dressing when we were younger and whether it was conscious or instinctive, we knew we had to hide this. Some of us felt shame, some of us were embarrassed, some of us terrified of being caught
We usually started to experiment a little more with this as teenagers. We started to buy (and hide) clothes, usually starting with panties. Endless cycles of shopping, shame, terror, purging and ultimately shopping again. Like a caterpillar into a butterfly, we are constantly trying to be beautiful.